This is a blog I wrote on facebook on my 20th birthday (less than a month ago). Although I have dedicated this blog to be a blog of the present and not of the past, I felt it to be important to share this message, but I promise from now on it's going to be just what God is doing in my life RIGHT NOW.... Enjoy!Well I'm 20 years old, and lately I've been looking back on my life.. where I'm at.. how I got here, and I've noticed that it's time to testify! The good Lord has done some miracles in my life and I gotta make it known to the world, ok! As I write this, I am sitting in a beautiful, lush tropical scene watching a fiery red sunset, surrounded by amazing people from all over the world and let me tell you brothas and sistas there's something in my heart right now that I cannot contain. There's somethin' in my heart that's screamin out and it wants to be known. That little heart deep down inside of me has a story and it has a message so listen up y'all!
In this story we find Jesus Christ taking center stage. Without him, my life would have no story worth telling but as my heart knows there aint no keeping Jesus Christ out of the story! I challenge you all to open your eyes and see that Jesus is not just here in the moment, or in our spiritual times but he is always with us every moment and has always been there through everything we've gone through, and I mean EVERYTHING!
When I was growing up I had my struggles, oh we all had our struggles but I felt myself suffering from rejection I felt like I wasn't good enough, I felt like I wasn't man enough and what I did was I opened up my heart to some lies, my heart began to hurt and there started a problem deep inside of me but you know what - Jesus was there. He was there every time someone called me a name, every time someone picked me last, oh when I felt out of place and insecure he was there right by my side, I see it now His hands moved with compassion reaching out to me trying to wipe away every tear but I did not let Him in, I did not turn to Jesus. I did not realize or understand that He was exactly what I needed and that He longed to tell me the Truth of who he created me to be, of the strong man I am and of my potential to make a difference in this world.
Over time my heart began to harden, I chose to rebel against what I knew was right and made bad decisions. Making poor friendship choices, falling into sinful habits of drinking and smoking and every time hardening my heart even more and killing my conscience away little by little. I fed the emptiness inside of me and the wounds and pain would never go away. I see now the pain my Jesus suffered by watching me in this time, I see the ways I hurt His heart by rejecting and rebelling against Him. He was always there reaching out to me calling out my name, but I was too cold and hardened to sense His love, to feel Him desperately trying to break in. He wants the best for our lives and love us so inexplicably that even when we are choosing to continue in destructive lifestyles Jesus is there in every decision and doing everything he can to help us, he became man and experienced every kind of temptation yet he did not sin, and he does have the power to keep us from sinning, he died to give us victory and salvation over sin and reconcile us back to a loving relationship with Him. But like so many people I did not respond, I was too trapped in immorality, but my Jesus never gave up.
There was one night I remember vividly, I felt torn and depressed and choking in hopelessness lying in my bed, feeling like I could never change, feelin like I had ruined everything and that I was some kind of monster oh but that night my friends that is the night where something happened. My ears heard the voice of Jesus and I'll never forget what he told me, he told me “I love you, you're a good man Morgan” that's all he said but you know what, that was enough. Jesus was there with me that night. Before that, I did not believe in God, I was offended by Him, how can he say he is loving and faithful if I am in so much pain and there is so much evil in this world. Oh how I see now that it was never His will for any bad thing to happen, but in His unfathomable love He made us with free-will and we are responsible for choosing evil over good and the consequences of our decisions, and even as we mess up and fail he is always doing everything to turn things around, to redeem us! I always had blamed God for my problems when in reality I can not justify myself for having done what I know is wrong, and there's always consequences good consequences if we obey God's loving and reasonable commands but very bad consequences if we selfishly choose to break those commands which have been summed up simply to love God and love one another (clearly the best way to live).Well I decided that night I didn't know if God was real or not, and I did not know if He truly is who He says He is, but I wanted to believe, how can you refuse such a beautiful thing? So I decided to give God the benefit of the doubt, let me tell you in that decision my cold dead heart began to have a small beat of hope.
And now I'm going to testify to just what happens when you give your life over to Jesus. Well now, without any doubt that was the best decision I've ever made! Jesus rescued me, he picked me up on wings like eagles and delivered me from my corrupt lifestyle and it was scary but faith moved me to do a discipleship training school in Costa Rica and that's when God really started to move y'all! He began to speak to me more and more clearly every single day I am hearing His guiding, comforting, loving voice of truth. He moved in every single area of my life, he restored my relationships, he freed me from sin, he healed my heart, renewed my mind, transformed me from the inside out and Lord have mercy I am a new creation, my heart was once dead but Jesus came in and it's more alive than ever! I realize I am a witness to the God of the impossible doing His thing in my life. My life is a testimony that God is mighty to save, but that is not all my friends! It is just the beginning of an exciting, fulfilling life with a relationship with Jesus Christ, a life with purpose, walking in freedom, and with JC on my team we gonna change the world!
Well that's where I'm at and how I got here, I really don't deserve to be here, or to have this second chance but hey that's why it's called grace.
Now It's my birthday wish that you all see Jesus Christ in every aspect of your lives, he has always been there and it's never too late to open up to him. He is who He says He is, and He's AWESOME. He is there knocking at your door, so invite him in to your heart and see that your life aint never gonna be the same ok!
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